9-11

Can you believe that this Sept 11th will be 2 years since the terror attacks?  It is hard to believe.  Sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday, then sometimes it's like 10 years ago, and on strange days it is almost like it was a dream, it never really happened.

What was I doing when it happened?  I remember all to well.  My dad and I had gone out for breakfast, and the place had a tv and it was on the "today" show.  Then we saw it.  I knew right off it was no accident.  Couldn't be, planes had been flying around the towers for years.  We hurried and went home to see more on tv.  I don't think it really hit me until I saw the tower collapse behind some reporter.  I still can't express what I was feeling at that moment in time.

That night I went to a prayer vigil at my church.  You would not believe how many people showed up.  I remember it was a Tuesday night and for a crowd like that to show up......The church was almost full.   And then it hit me, there is a fireman in my Sunday school class.  I am far away from NYC, but to think that could have been him that died.  His wife and kids left behind.  It started to make things even more personal for me.

Last year I ordered a flag to be flown over the United States Capital building on Sept 11th to mark the first anniversary of the attacks.  I can hardly bear to look at it.  This year, I think I will try to do something different -- different for me anyway.  Maybe I will go to my closest fire department to let them know that I haven't forgotten.  Maybe I will just sit outside and talk to God.  He can be a pretty good listener.