Wednesday, December 17, 2003

I am addicted.

I never thought I would have to say those words.  I am addicted.  Do you have any idea how hard that is to say?  To tell total strangers that you have a problem?  Well, actually, you guys are the first people for me to tell.  I know that my fellow AOL journalers won't judge me.  I know that maybe one of you has or had the same problem as I do.  Maybe you can help me to tell my family.  Hopefully you can be my support system.  Goodness only knows I will need it if I am to be able to deal with my addiction.

 It didn't take all that long for me to become an addict.  Maybe it is in my genes.  Some part of my makeup that made me susceptible.  I just don't know what to do.  This is taking over my life.  I always say just one more.  I can quit any time I want to.  I just do it one more time and then stop.  Then I don't and I am up half the night doing more and feeling really bad about it.   Is there anyone out there that can help me?  Anyone with an addiction problem?  With the same addiction as me? 

 Oh, I didn't tell you my problem yet did I?  I am so embarrassed.  I am addicted to the pogo game Tri-Peaks Solitaire!  Really.  I can't stop playing.  I am up late because I think I will just play one last hand.  Then I will lose that hand and say just one more.......  

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

hello .. my name is pamela and i'm a tri-peeks solitaire addict too
hehe .. they say that admitting you have a problem is the first step !!
i finally had to step away from my computer entirely for a few days in order to get my addiction under control .. i am please that i can now play one single game and then walk away without feeling like the next hand could have won me the jackpot, or i would have beat my 17 consecutive cards lol
sending you hugs .. i really can sympathize :)
pamel

Anonymous said...

I completely understand this. I have such an addictive personality, I know what I can and cannot try. Like, if I see a game, i think to myself, "No that seems like WAY too much fun, don't do it." But I do it anyway. I'm a straight addict for lots of things. It's not something to be ashamed of. hahaha =)
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-Ronee