Humbug

Christmas is almost here.  woo-hoo.  Ok, I am a bit of a scrooge.  I find the Christmas season to be depressing.  I don't know why.  I buy presents, make Christmas cards (funny, I actually enjoy making the cards), I go to Christmas functions at church, ect....But I do get depressed every year at this time. 

Maybe it is because I don't have a family of my own.  Oh, I still have my parents and my brother and his family is around--somewhere, but I still don't have my "Mr. Right."  I used to spend part of Christmas with my best friend M, but when I got sick she only stuck around for so long.  I guess she couldn't hang in there for the long haul. Don't feel sorry for me, I am doing ok, I just have problems with depression like I have told you guys before.

I do make myself get out and be social even if I really don't want to.  I think it is important for me NOT to give in and become a hermit.  That would be so easy to do.