Went to the doctor the other day. I have lost 20 pounds since my last visit (which was in Feb). My blood work came back good, and my diabetes is better (so the note he sent said). All this is great news. I haven't exactly been exercising or eating the way I should these past few months.
Today I went to the support group for people with mood disorders. Haven't been in a long time. I promised mom that I would start going back. So I feel that I have made a huge step towards life again.
Going through mom's things is hard. Doing all the legal stuff is heart breaking. I won't bore you with details and tears. Just know it's hard.
Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, is telling me that my brother may be going through his own personal hell with mom's death and that I should not be so hard on him. The further away from the funeral the less hard I feel towards Bro, but I have a ways to go yet. If he would just say what is going on instead of avoiding everyone.
Two of my aunts are in the hospital. Both are my dad's sisters. One has that Merser (the staph infection thing) and the other fell and hurt her back. They are both in different cities. That's the problem with dad's family -- no one lives in the same place!
Life is going on. I guess it has been all along but I just wasn't going along with it. I'm starting to though. It's tough. But I think I'll make it. I think.....
Kathy
6 comments:
You will make it Kathy. You will. This is a very tough and painful time ... just know you are cared about.
Love you, my friend. I wish I were there right now. I wouldn't be a whole lot of help, but I listen well. Be blessed, Penny http://journals.aol.com/firestormkids04/FromHeretoThere
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There's no timetable for grief...and there's no rulebook. Life does indeed go on, and it'll still be there when you're ready to fully join in to whatever degree you're comfortable. Keep up the good work with your health!
Russ
P.S. Thanks for the e-card. It made me smile!
What great news Kathy...I am so glad that your visit to the Dr. has proved so positive. So here's hoping that the rest of the year is going to be good for you. I am sure you will get through all these awful moments...it just takes a long long time to come to terms with the changes in your life. Love to you and your Dad Love Sybil x
Life does goes on, and your right, you will be okay. Congrats on the 20 pounds lost. Enjoy your weekend.
Missie
Good to hear from you Kathy. Well done on the 20 pound weightloss. That is terrific. I hope you can get as much support as you need at this sad time. Love Pam xx
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