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Can you believe that this coming Monday is Christmas? And a week later it will be 2007? I knew time flew the older you get but this is getting ridiculious!
Not much going on around here. I felt a need to get out so I took my anxeity meds called Dad and we were off to Wal-Mart. I should have known better! Crowds! Ugh. The presents I am giving this year are a little on the lean side and though I know my parents could care less I wanted a little something else. So I bought these Christmas tins for $2.00 and bought some bags of candy to stuff in them. And I found a small apple crumb cake (that looks yummy) to take for desert on Christmas Day.
If I had have driven home I think I would have had a major panic attack and would have had to been taken to the ER. Traffic is horrible and people seem to have totally forgotten how to drive! Idiots! What is it about holidays (or traffic jams) that causes people to forget how to drive?
Yesterday I had lunch with my parents. Mom had started to make some mac n cheese (from the box -- Kraft) and she goes: I don't remember how to make it Kathy. That hit me like a ton of bricks. If she is even beginning to forget how to make something that simple.........And she gets way upset over small things. Like she sent dad to the store to pick up a few groceries. She wanted 2 pounds of hamburger. So he came home with two 1 pound packs of hamburger. She came whispering to me that he hadn't bought what she wanted. She wanted to make a big meatloaf. I said but you asked for 2 pounds of hamburger right? Yeah, but look at these small packs he bought! Mom that is a total of 2 pounds. Oh forget it. After I left she sent dad back to the store to get more hamburger.
Everytime I go visit mom waits until dad is out of the room and tries to whisper about things he is doing. He isn't doing anything he hasn't before but now it's a big deal to her.
I guess her mind is going more and more. I am lucky I don't live in the same house as I don't think I could handle it (along with all my own problems), dad is muddling through. I keep hoping it's just a bad dream. Or if it's real it won't get anyworse. But it isn't a dream and her mind seems to keep getting worse. You can forget about getting her to go to the doctor before her next appointment. She is bound to know things aren't right, but she refuses to see a doctor until it's time. God knows I love her, but.........
I shouldn't complain. Russ just lost his mom and at least I still have mine.
Oops, forgot to upload a graphic for my signature. Well you can live without it today can't you?
Kathy
11 comments:
No need to compare your pain to others. Yes, at least you have a mom...but sometimes it's even harder to lose someone while they're still there...ya know?
Anyway, love your creativity with gifts. Thought always outweighs cost in my book.
Merry Christmas Kathy,
Nancy
My mom had chemo last year and since then, she's been forgetting things that are very easy to do also. Have a good night and I love the Moose graphic.
Missie
Hope your Christmas is lovely! {{ }}
Glad you got out of the house, but i know what you mean about the crowds! GRRRR
The last couple of yrs my Mom was alive, she didn't know me, that was so hard, she'd been my best friend all my life. Even 3 yrs prior to that, she started forgeting more & more, it was so hard to watch her mind go.
Blessings,
Sugar
I refuse to shop this time of year. I order everything.....I will go down the main road to a local inexpensive mini department store but no where else. The traffic is horrible. I don't even like being a passenger and I worry about my daughter out shopping now.
Angela
Life isn't fair, but then again, who said it would be? It's so hard to see our parents change. Ideally they retire and enjoy their autumn years and everybody lives happily ever after. I guess we all just need to live day by day.
Have a very merry Christmas!!!
I'm with you on the crazy drivers . . . my last foray out, I noted that the drivers were racing through the parking lots as if it were a race track. I don't get out all that often - don't really want to - and to see these guys out there trying to kill themselves and me . . .well - heck with it. I'm praying for your mom and dad. Blessings, Penny http://journals.aol.com/firestormkids04/FromHeretoThere
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thats exactly as moms alzhiemers is. your mom needs to get on meds soon to slow it down. my mom constanly talks about daddy saying how he is not doing this right and that. He walks from the table and she has to say something. its getting so Hate to talk to her.
I know what you mean about the drivers. They are insane lately. Sorry about your mom. Just take it a day at a time. It's hard on you....but it's hard on her, too.
Pam
The holidays seem to bring out the worst in people. I understand the panic attack thing. So, take a deep breath and just let the holidays happen. Soon it will be a new year with new possibilities. I do hope your Mom gets on track and accepts some help from the Doc
Deb
Merry christmas hun to you and your family,love zoe xx
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Merry Christmas to you too Cathy, Xmas 2007 is only 369 days away :-))
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