Thursday, April 17, 2008

And it keeps getting worse.

My dad just called from the hospital.  He told me earlier today that he thought he would be coming home tomorrow.  Now that doesn't seem like it is going to happen.  He says he is as sick or sicker than he was when he went into the hospital.

He finally agrees that a lot of it could also be the stress of mom dying.  I told him to tell the nurse/doctor that he thinks thats it.  That he needs some help coping and some meds for anexity or something.  He said he would have the nurse call me.

My brother has to go home Saturday.  So with all the stuff with dad I will have to call Hospice back and see about getting mom on their waiting list for respite care.

This is really getting to be too much.  I am so scared that when mom dies dad will have a heart attack and drop dead.  I am so scared I will have to bury both parents at the same time.

I know.  Things will work itself out somehow and someway.  I will be ok.  I will be ok.....maybe if I say it long enough I will believe it.....I will be ok........

Kathy

 

22 comments:

Anonymous said...

I hope things can be worked out to help both your parents and yourself, Kathy

Anonymous said...

Kath I am so sorry to hear this  news... sending you hugs and strength
love ya
d

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry Kathy.
I am keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.

Love,

Michelle

Anonymous said...

Good Lord-your plate is full.I am just now preparing to bring my mother to live with us..and am half dreading the days ahead.But I guess I should count my blessings that we'll have this time together..Oh-I pray for you dear gal..you are a saint and you will get a crown of glory!!

Anonymous said...

Special thoughts...
Linda...

Anonymous said...

(((((Kathy))))).  You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.  I will be back to check on you.  I haven't gotten your alerts in a while.  STupid aol. Hang in there honey.   love ya, Shelly

Anonymous said...

Prayers are with you.  Know having Mom and Dad ill at the same time can't be easy--but take care of yourself, or you won't be a help to either of them.  (((hugs))), LaVern

Anonymous said...

My prayers are with you, i know that's gotta be hard to deal with... things will work out.

Joann

Anonymous said...

Dear Kathy,  I have just popped in after a word with Guedo.  I am so sorry to read of all your trials at the moment.  Please do get in touch with hospice care.Even though Mom dosn't want you to.  You need to have some respite and even when Dad gets home he won't be able to cope with Moms demanding wyas for a while.  The hospice have here own way of coping with all situations and will help you all.  I have added you to my alerts so that I can keep you close.  God Bless I have added you to my prayers.  Much Love Sybil xx

Anonymous said...

he's not going to. it's a normal thing to sort of have catastrophic thoughts at a time like this. i know that doesn't make it better--

love love you

me

Anonymous said...

ps: i think i still have ur # stored, but i don't want to bother you. call me if you need to. anytime. u know i never sleep.

Anonymous said...

All I can do is send you big hugs!!
Missie

Anonymous said...

You're in my prayers friend. Tammy

Anonymous said...

Kathy. I am so shocked to read to your entry. You are being so brave. If I was there next to you, I would give you such a big cuddle. You are living an utter hell at the moment and I truly hope things will ease up for you. I am so sad to hear about both your parents. If you need anything please email me. If I can help at all, I will be only too happy to. I will keep you all In my thoughts and prayers. Love Pam xx
http://journals.aol.co.uk/pamal3/almost-40/

Anonymous said...

"Things will work itself out somehow and someway."

They will.  And that's what you need to remember now when it seems impossible to believe.

Russ

Anonymous said...

I am so very sorry to hear what you are going through at the moment, my heart goes out to you.

I hope and pray that you are given the strength to get through this
hugs Jayne

Anonymous said...

Wish I could give you a hug Kathy.  Bless your heart.  I hope you can find maybe a minutes worth of peace in the days to come.
Love,
Connie

Anonymous said...

I'll say a prayer for you and your family.

Dan

http://journals.aol.com/slapinions/Slap-Inionscom

Anonymous said...

kathy        i know only too well how hard it is        you  must  get help,some respite              or you will be ill             you take care       love  mort xxx

Anonymous said...

I know this has to be so awful for you.  I hope that your dad is doing better.  I am so sorry you have all this stress right now.
Lori

Anonymous said...

just checking in honey-


xoxoxo

Anonymous said...

You will be okay, but saying it doesn't make all that's going on any easier.  Truth is, we none of us are ready no matter how well we prepare ourselves.