He may still be sick, but he is CANCER FREE!!!!!!!!
this entry will make you shout for joy!
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Friday, March 30, 2007
Me, myself and I
Many of you have wondered what I look like. Got ya all excited when I posted a picture taken of me on my 3rd birthday. (I was such a darling wasn't I?) Well mom has been having me go through tons of pictures and I found one of me that I would love to share with you.
After I uploaded the picture I noticed it isn't as clear as the orginal and I'm sorry about that. This is one of my favorite pictures of me and I LOVED that pink dress! Had it forever!
I have always been told that I look younger than my actual age. But in case you can't tell I AM younger in the picture.
This is my 1st grade picture. Wasn't I just the most darling little kiddie you ever saw? LOL Soon those brown eyes would start hinding behind glasses......
I decided maybe my funk was spreading to you so I thought I should change the subject for this entry. Maggie (one of the kitties) just came into the room to use the litter box (if you have never tried the "febreze air effects" air refresher you should. If you have a litter box it is a MUST, how their poop can smell so loudly is beyound me.).
Kathy
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Cheeseburger in Paradise
Nothing major going on around here. Nothing minor either. Just basically SSDD. My social mood is almost at an all time low -- as you can tell I haven't even been social here in J-land or anywhere on line. I need to update all my journals, I need to catch up on my journal reading and do a ton of commenting. But for some reason I really don't see that happening soon. And I hate that. I worked hard to get some readers and to find jounals that I like and to become friends with some of you.
I really don't understand this funk I am in. I've talked about it to Dr Shrink but the main thing he has been working on was to help me get some sleep. We now have that fixed (thank God for drugs! LOL) so I am guessing we will soon have to address the idea of changing my meds dosage or (and I hate this option) changing meds again...... I can't keep living my life the way I have been lately. It isn't living at all. I have been existing not living.
I did get my eyes examed yesterday and should be able to get new glasses sometime tomorrow. Don't know if that will effect my mood in any way but I should be able to read better, and all of you that wear glasses -- it just feels great to get a new pair and change your look a little, right?
My mom is going through everything at her house and wanting to know if I want this or that. I'm all like "mom is there something you aren't telling me?", Mom is no, but I'm not young and you never know when it will be my time. Ok so that has definitely added to my funk. Mom trying to make sure that I get anything in the house that I want (which I inherit everything after she and dad passes any way) and that she doesn't mistakely give my brother something that I want. Sounds like she thinks she isn't going to live long (and I am realistic she is 75 years old), but this is just creeping me out so much. She could live another 5 years or even more.
Tell someone you love them. Remember all those in J-land that are sick, have cancer, having surgeries, depressed, and well heck, remember all the healthy ones too.
And lastly:: hug someone. You just don't know how much a hug can mean to a person.
Kathy
Saturday, March 24, 2007
It's Saturday!
One of my aunt's managed do some freaky fall out of bed and her walker was involved somehow. Anyway she broke her arm (or was it her shoulder? she lives out of town and getting the "straight" scoop on things is hard as it goes through members of the family before it gets to you) I'm sure she will be ok. But breaking bones when you are in your 70's can't be fun.
The weather is great. If feels like summer. I even turned on my air conditioner today! I know I will probably need the heat back on in a week or so. LOL
Here's some links I 'rounded up for ya. Hope you like them.
You Got Questions, Ninja Got Answers. | Ask A Ninja
THE CHUCK NORRIS FACTS - TOP 100 CHUCK NORRIS JOKES (way too funny!!!!!!!!!!!)
rathergood PrintShop (I have nevered ordered from this site. Do so at your own risk.)
BookMooch: a community for exchanging used books (book swap and book exchange and book trade) (haven't tried this site out. use at your own risk)
Salary.com's Cost of Living Wizard Tool
http://www.vh1.com/shows/dyn/the_greatest/115766/episode_featured_copy.jhtml (great list but it doesn't give links. you can do a search and find most of the videos mentioned though. it's worth the effort!)
YouTube - Broadcast Yourself. you saw the orginial now see the follow up!!! LOL (ok if you didn't see the orginial here it is: YouTube - Numa Numa) (and for you Toon Guy: YouTube - numa numa klay man
YouTube - Ho Quynh Huong -LiveShow Toi La Sinh Vien 8_Co Nhau Tron Doi (have no idea who this is or what she is singing, it's really pretty though!)
Kathy
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Celebration!
Celebrate good times, come on!!!! LOL Oh yeah......... Went back to my medical doctor today. I've lost 7 pounds!!!!! OH YEAH!!! And I wasn't even trying!
How did I do it? Well..........a while back they were predicting some really bad weather here so I bought some bottled water. My thinking was if something happened and the pipes froze or whatever I would need fresh water for my cats. Big storm never happened and I had grown tired of stepping over the bottle water every day so I decided to start drinking it.
By the time I had drank up what I had in the house the diet drinks I was drinking tasted way too sweet. In face I can't hardly stand anything other than water (and milk) right now.
So I have been drinking the water, and started actually drinking more and more than I was drinking of diet drinks before. So I am guessing all this extra water is helping to curb my appetite because I am eating some less (still basically my usuall junk but not at much).
Wonder how much more weight I can lose just by drinking tons and tons of water? This isn't too bad.
Talked to my medical doctor today about my tonsils and the other doctor. He is getting me in to see another ENT on April 9th. We even talked more about maybe why my tonsils got so big. I mean there should be a reason right? Had a great conversation with him and can't wait to see the new ENT.
Oh, the old ENT's office called me today. My blood work came back and they didn't see any allergeries (well, at least none that they tested for). They never asked anymore about me or offered to make another appointment. Which was totally weird because I thought she was real close to wanting to take my tonsils out. I'm glad I am getting another doctor.
Blood test may say I am not allergic to some things, but I know there is something in my house that my system doesn't like. My medical doctor and the old ENT said they thought I had allergeies (from talking to me and from my nose "exam"). So I am wondering if whatever is making me feel like I'm allergic to something could be making my tonsils big also. Maybe not a real infection type thing, but something that just isn't quite normal. I am still staying tired a lot (even though I got some great sleeping pills from Dr Shrink).
I also could care less about doing anything but laying on the couch and flipping the tv channels. Something needs to give in that department. I'm getting nothing done, and I am spending really no time with my J-land buddies. I am totally out of the loop about most all that is going on. My fault I know. Maybe things will start getting back to normal for me soon.
Kathy
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Links
I was very bad and didn't post links yesterday like I said I would. So sorry. But here are some now:
Glitter Graphics: your resource for Myspace graphics and Myspace layouts!
The Official Site of Major League Baseball: Homepage
Boogie Through Life ~ Grandma Faith's Website
In God We Trust Free Patriotic Christian Flash Movie
Superman Returns(TM): Stop! Press! Game
African Wildlife, Zakouma Eye to Eye - National Geographic Magazine
Chimps Use "Spears" to Hunt Mammals, Study Says
FreakyDreams.com Dream Analyzer
Dream Moods A-Z Dream Dictionary
An Online Guide To Dream Interpretation
Health and Fitness in Middle Age -
Physical Fitness for the middle aged
The Internet Movie Database (IMDb)
2007 Hooters Calendar - NO nudity, I promise!
YouTube4 so NOT funny ::giggle:: when did the words change? ::giggle::
YouTube7 - I haven't watched the entire video so view at your own discretion.
YouTube8 "adult" language towards end of video
funny talking cats - Google Video
Cat and Dog food recall
There is a HUGE cat AND dog food recall. Heard about it on the local news. Here's a link to see if your fur baby's food has been recalled: Menu Foods Income Fund - Annual General Meeting This is very important as pets have died, something about kidney failure. If you have a cat or a dog go check to make sure your food isn't on the list.
Friday, March 16, 2007
old brother, and neighbor Jim
Yesterday was by brother's (er...older brother) birthday. Yeap. My folks are now the proud parents of a 50 year old son. LOL That has bound to make the parents feel old. LOL I won't be that old for another......hey, that's none of your business!
My neighbor Jim is doing pretty good. C had him out of the house (in a wheel chair) in their front yard so he could get some air and visit with the doggies. I am so very proud of Jim. He is in such a better mind-set than I would be. I guess coming so close to death will do it to you. I made a remark about the drunk driver that hit him and all Jim had to say was "I hope he learned something from this". Huh? I'm all like he should be put under the jail and throw away the key, but Jim is just hoping the guy learned a lesson? And with all that metal attached to his leg, wrist in a cast and all banged up bruised Jim also said: If this (right here and now) is as good as will get, then that's ok. I'm like Jim you are going to get better but it will take a long time......and he is "yeah I know, but if it weren't going to get any better I would be ok with this."
Knock me over with a feather! I can't believe Jim's attitude about being hit by a drunk driver and almost dying. Maybe I would feel the same way if it was me? I don't know. I guess it's something you have to go through, but I am still pretty PO'd at the drunk driver that hit him!
I have tons of links that I am going to try to post in another entry later tonight. Not promising but keep your fingers crossed!
Kathy
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
linkys for ya
Got a few new entries up over here: Forever Forward
Got a ton of links to share also. Here are only a few:
Meanings and origins of phrases - A
Portraits of the Presidents from the National Portrait Gallery (dare you to try to find a good looking man in the bunch! LOL no you can't count Kennedy, besides he wasn't all that and a bag of chips.....was he?)
Wonderful Day Greetings Joy Filled RiverSongs Happy Day Greeting Cards
Gentleannie2 Safe in your Arms
Facts about March - Customs, Sayings and Traditions
National Women's History Project
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
What a lousy neighbor I am
Ok, so I don't know my neighbors. Which for the most part is ok by me. I do know a couple of people on the street but we aren't what you would call friends. More like we wave and say hi when we see each other out. And always the "if you need something let me know" type deal.
Well a few weeks ago my neigbhor should could have used me and I wasn't there -- not because I didn't want to be but because I didn't know.
I noticed that I had missed seeing Jim's car but thought he was working some odd hours or that I just kept missing him. No major deal.
Then I saw a dog lot go up in their front yard. Jim and Carol have 4 dogs -- all large dogs -- that they usually keep inside or will take turns tying the dogs out in the yard.
Something I FINALLY notice just isn't right. I see Carol out chasing down a dog that had gotten lose so I yell and her and we talk.
Three weeks ago Jim was working (delivering pizza's) and got hit head on by a drunk driver (drunk driver is doing fine by the way). Jim has just gotten out of the hospital most of the time was spent in ICU. He has had blood clot problems, a broken arm, one of his legs is messed up really bad (has one of those "halo" type things on it ) and if I remember right Carol said he broke 11 ribs I feel so bad for Jim, and Carol too. I didn't ask if she was working but I don't think so I think she is having to take care of Jim 24/7. ( Lousy neighbor I should have asked! ) I don't know how they will manage with neither working.
I do plan on offering to run errands for her if I can. And make sure they have my phone number.
I am really upset that I didn't know before now and am really PO'D at the 22 year old drunk driver that hit Jim. He guy had a DUI from before, this time he was drinking, had perscription drungs, and weed in his car!!!!! Jim was just out trying to make an honest buck and now is still bascially fighting for his life. Even when everything heals (and that will take a long time) he won't ever be the same, you know he won't.
Other than feeling like a total loser of a neighbor I am doing ok. The longer I am off some sleep meds the better I feel. New sleep meds on board and I'm doing pretty good. Still waiting on the blood tests for my allergy but I am almost postitive it's the cats (most likely Sophie). Next week I go go back to my shrink and to my medical doctor. Am going to ask the medical doctor to send me to another ENT seeing as I will NOT be going back to the one I just saw.
Even if I keep my tonsils I feel something should have been done other than ask about my snoring.
I really am trying to get back on line more and to visit journals. You usused to have to drag me kicking and screaming off line but now it seems like it takes a herd of horses to get me in here. I don't know what the problem is. Maybe it is still lack of motivation (which I have talked to shrink about).
Hang in there. Tell someone you love them and be sure you give them a hug each time you get in a car. You just never know. (Oh, this past week a local news anchor killed someone while he was out driving drunk-----too many people driving drunk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Kathy
Friday, March 9, 2007
Some chilly cheese fries and iced tea sound good right now.........
I shouldn't complain about not feeling well. Lots of people worse off than me. I realize that. But didn't I tell you that I can handle pain, but if I'm sick I think I'm dying? So forgive the baby in me.
My poor nose! I can't breathe hardly. I have known for a while that I am more likely than not allergic to at least one of my babies. And I think I have been handling it pretty well.........but today! Whatever the heck the doctor shoved up my nose yesterday has made things worse. This is worse than any cold I've ever had. And one side of my nose has showed some blood (don't ask, you don't want to know). So I am in my poor pitiful me, I'm dying mode. Hopefully I will yank myself up by my bootstraps and act the adult I am. But I don't have any bootstraps.........
Whenever I can get back in with my medical doctor I will get him to send me for another opinion on the tonsils. Why? Do I want them yanked out? NO!!!! LOL But I've been thinking on how he said they were almost touching........and there have been some days when I can't seem to swallow my meds. Oh I know that happens to everyone on occassion........but since he said that my tonsils were practically touching it has gotten me to wondering if they could cause problems in the future with taking my meds.
Right now I just want to find something for my allergy so I can breathe. And don't say get rid of the cat(s). Ain't gonna happen. Nothing like trying to sleep with a stopped up nose and having the reason why you can't breathe curl up and go to sleep on top of you........LOL
I'm slowly coming out of my sleep-coma so hopefully I will get back on line more often a little at a time.
Oh, Andi you are old enough to remember the drive in movies! Can't believe you say you have never been! They were so much fun back in the day...........
Kathy
Thursday, March 8, 2007
I'm still alive
I am in a major fowl mood, but I'm here.
Come to find out a lot of my being tired/fatigue was coming from the sleeping pills Dr Shrink gave me. Oh I slept at night with them, but I could hardly set up during the day. So Dr Shrink changed me to another brand. Last night was first night on them. Didn't sleep really well but I thought it could be coming from nerves over having to see the ENT doctor today. I'll give the new sleeping pills another night or two.
So I get up this morning and my HUGE tonsil's and I go to the ENT doctor. Appointment was at 9:30 AM but as usual for me I get there a little early. I don't get called into the back unto 10:00 AM. Not a good start. In the back I am kept waiting until 10:25 before the doctor walks in. (oh yes the times are right, me and my Marvin the Martin watch kept in close contact!) Dr ENT looks at my tonsil's, yup, they are HUGE, looks up my nose......she (yeah a lady doctor) then says she is going to put this cottony stuff soaked in something up both sides my nose. I am not thrilled. But I allow this to happen. She then LEAVES THE ROOM. Wasn't in there 5 minutes with me. I am looking at my watch trying to decide at what time I will walk out. 5 til. That's it I am going to walk out at 5 til 11 if she isn't back. Dr ENT cuts it sooooooo close and she walzes in at 10:56 AM.
Now the rest of the exam. Looks up my nose again, got a deviated septum, little something or another up over there. Anoids fine.
Dr ENT do you want us to do some blood work to make sure you are allegric to your cat, or dust, or blah blah blah.........Me: you can tell with blood work? Sure.
Ok........When is Dr ENT going to mention my tonsils again?...............I FINALLY say well what about my tonsils? Do you snore? Yes, my mom has told me that. How bad? Huh? Well why don't you go to your mom's house and take a nap and have her listen and let us know how bad it is. If it's like a cat purr then no problem if it's really loud then we might need to take out your tonsils.
WHAT IN (INSERT CURSE WORD/S OF YOUR CHOICE) KIND OF DIANOSIS IS THAT? WHERE THE (CURSE WORDS HERE) DID YOU GO TO COLLEGE WOMAN?
So in about 10 days DR I DON'T HAVE A CLUE will call me and tell me about the blood work and if I tell her I snore like a freight train I guess she will want to operate. BUT I DON'T THINK SO I'm not going back to her. Never, no way, no how.
I called my medical doctor (the one that sent me to Dr wonderful) but I really didn't want to do the phone tag thing so I made up an excuse to get an appointment to see him. I can't get in for another 2 1/2 weeks but I made the appointment while I sit here and decide on what I want to do. I could see one of Med Dr's associates and try to work out another ENT to try -- but somehow that doesn't feel quite right. It's like I'm going behind his back or something. Or I could call and leave a message for him to call me and sit back until his nurse calls finds out what I want, then chase him down to see what he thinks and calls me back with a message that he will call me sometime?........
So I still feel rundown and sleepy. Whatever Dr ENT put up my nose has gotten it to hurting now. And I don't really know much of anything. Well, I do think I used the wrong "fowl" up top. How should I spell it? Oh, who cares.............
I miss everyone of you guys. I just haven't been on line. I prefer the couch these days.
****oh, in case you are wondering I called mom and she said the last time I fell asleep on her couch I did indeed sound like freight train running through her living room. See that's the best part about cats --- they won't tell you if you snore or not. They let you believe you lay sleeping like a beautiful (and quite) princess..........(or is that why Maggie wakes me at all hours to be fed? she's trying to get even at not getting a good night's cat nap in? LOL)
Kathy
Sunday, March 4, 2007
Blah.
I am just not up to feeling like my self these past few days.
Is it my depression? Is is now that I know something is wrong with my tonsil my brain is making me feel lousy? Is is just a combination of everything? Who knows. I do believe I will proably be fine. Give me a few more days.
Right now I stay so dog gone tired. I finally got some great medicine to help me sleep at night, but in the daytime I am so incrediably tired. Tired more than sleepy. All I want to do is lay down. I've skiped meals because I was just to tired to care.
So that's want's up with me. I am sure it's all in my mind and that it will pass given enough time. And if it doesn't pass, well I see the ENT doctor Thrusday and she can give me her opinion.
If you don't hear from me don't worry. I'm not, I'm just curled up on the couch watching cartoons..........
Kathy
Friday, March 2, 2007
Thursday, March 1, 2007
Just me and my tonsils here. LOL
Next Thursday me and my HUGE tonsils go to see the ears/nose/throat doctor. So looking forward to it.......NOT
If you want to learn more about tonsils go here: WebMD Health Search If you go here: Sleep Apnea Study | Obstructive Sleep Apnea | Central Sleep Apnea it tells about sleep apnea which can be caused by large tonsils. At the bottom of the page it gives some of the worst side effects for sleep apnea. Like this:
Untreated sleep apnea can increase the chance of having high blood pressure and even a heart attack or stroke. Untreated sleep apnea can also increase the risk of diabetes and the risk for work-related accidents and driving accidents.
***copied from Sleep Apnea Study | Obstructive Sleep Apnea | Central Sleep Apnea
Reguardless I'm going to get it checked out. If, IF I have to have surgery you will know it from the whiney way I get when told I have to have surgery. I worry about NOT waking up after the surgery and about dad having to come and feed my babies while I am in the hospital. I've have lots of surgery's and the pain afterwards isn't something I worry about. I can handle pain pretty good -- but being sick? I always think I'm going to die when I get sick. I'm such a wennie! LOL
As for my alergy I have only had 1 Claritin pill and it hasn't done anything but I really didn't expect it to, I'm guessing it will take a few days or a week to see a difference.
Lots of other little things to share. Don't know that I'll get to them all in this entry. So I'll pick and choose a few things.......
Mom said the other day she felt like she looked old (I think it's the cane she has started to finally use) and I said well mom you are 75 years old. LOL She didn't seem to care for that comment. LOL
While at the eye doctor with Mom........everytime the doctor turned away from Mom to make notes she would start to make faces. When the doctor left the room I told Mom that the older she gets the cranker and *itchier she gets. She then informed me that I too will get *itchier as I age. LOL I told this to my dad and he said he didn't want to see me any *itchier! LOL
But really the older Mom gets the more her personality changes. She used to never be out spoken and now you should here the way she talks to doctors!
This is a long entry so I'll shut up. I'll save some more little things for another entry.
Take care. Hug somebody.
Kathy
Tags: tonsils, sleep apnea, surgery, pain, sick, mom, cranky,
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