The year is almost over.

I am sorry that I have not been commenting in anyone's journal lately.  I just don't feel like it.  Sad truth but there it is.  My mind is on so many other things.  My parents you know about.  But now there is their cat.  Yep, little old Sara has been attacking mom some and even started to go after dad.  So off to the vet Sara went.  Have to make sure nothing is physically wrong that is making her misbehave.  Dr B couldn't find anything wrong.  So it must be psychological in nature.  Great.  He says the only thing to try is to see if some hormone shot will help her with whatever is going on.  If the shot helps then she will need to get one every 2 weeks or so.  If it doesn't work.......well her condition will only get worse and we can't have her attacking mom.  So we will have to have Sara put to sleep.  It is really sad.

And next......couple weeks ago I went for my yearly exam with the GYN doctor.  He drew blood.  Didn't like what showed up so I had to go to my internist today.  Great news, I have diabetes.  No "pre-diabetes", Dr G says he's calling it diabetes.  But before "we throw medicine" at it I have to see a specialist and make some "lifestyle" changes.  I know I have to do it, but I don't know if I can.  I have depression also and that fights against all the things I need to do because of the diabetes.  Exercise?  Sounds easy enough to walk for 30 minutes a day, but depression makes it hard to get up and get dressed much less exercise.

If it sounds like it, it is.  I am throwing myself a big old pity party today.  All are invited.  Party must end before morning though.

Oh!  My neighbors a few doors down were robbed over Christmas.  Lots of stuff stolen, even a gun is gone.  Lucky no one was home when the houses (yep, houses -- 2 of them) were robbed.

I need to get a dog.  A guard dog.  And one that would force me to go out and walk it everyday.

Kathy

It's that time of year! No, not Santa, it's fruit cake season!!! Yummy!

I am a lucky person.  I know that.  Really I do.  Sometimes I have to throw myself a big old pity party but I know that I am basically a lucky person.

I LOVE my parents.  I am lucky enough to still have them here on the earth with me.  However......I know my mom is driving my dad crazy.  Guess dementia will do that to a person.  But now dad has said he'd leave if he had a place to go.  He even told mom he would move in with one of his sisters (she's a widow) but didn't know if she would let him.  Mom gets all mad and says if they could just get along.  She says just ask me yes or no questions and I will stay in my room and we just won't talk.  NOW dad throws a hissy fit saying why live in a house with someone that won't talk to you.

Take a deep breath Kathy......a long deep breath........

Mom wants to know what I think.  Wants my suggestions on how to make life at their house calmer.  ROTFLOL Wants my ideas?!!! She is kidding right?  If I told her what I really thought she would never speak to me again.  But I'm not mean.  I know that she can't help a lot of the things that comes out of her mouth.  She doesn't realized how she has been changing.

Yep, I'm lucky I don't live with the parents.  I am unlucky in I don't know how the heck to deal with 2 grown people that are acting like 3 year olds.  I know they can't help it -- or maybe they could at least to a little extent.

Pray for them.  Heck pray for me.  We all need some help over in this corner of the world.

Oh!  Totally forgot I did a Christmas journal last year.  It's still up and I am guessing that any links over there still work.  Check it out:  Trying Not To Be Bah Humbug! In the column to the right (in that journal) is a link to eachentry so you don't have to go hunting for entries that aren't on the front page.

I hope everyone is having a great holiday season.  Try to think of the good things.  Tell someone you love them and give them a big old bear hug.  You never know when you might not be able to do it again.

Kathy

 

Tags: dementia, parents, holidays, christmas journal

who didn't know? and just stuff i've been doing

The headline on this is true: Worst Kept Secret in Hollywood - AOL Video Blog  If you didn't know she was gay then your "gay-dar" isn't working.  Frankly I could care less.  She's a great actress.  I heard once that this hilarious guy thought no one had a clue he was gay.  Hee Hee  Again that "gay-dar" would have told you so.  I loved watching him on the Hollywood Squares.  Funny.

I am hooking on one of AOL's free games: The Rise of Atlantis - AOL Games  I can play it for hours.  I totally lose track of time, space, and whatever else when I play it.

I got an email from Amazon today telling me they were sorry but they couldn't ship my stuff when they had planned.  It would be after Christmas before shipping.  Then a few hours later I get an email telling me the stuff has been shipped.  What the???  Doesn't really matter when I get it  -- just some horror movies for me to watch.

I went to the doctor yesterday.  It was time for my yearly exam with the GYN.  I really like my doctor.  But I dread going for the physical every year.  This time he had some blood drawn to check to see if lowering my HRT meds had any effect on stuff.  Can't wait to see what shows up.  Oh and you know how they weigh you every time you go?  I've lost a couple more pounds!  Great!

Sent a small amount of $$ to the local rescue mission.  They work with just homeless (I guess they are all homeless) men.  I really like their stores (used stuff, lots of furniture) but I hate going to the stores because they are where the men hang out and it quite frankly creeps me out sometimes.  I'm sure none of the men are going to attack me, but I feel uncomfortable around so many.

Guess that's it for now.  See ya around.

Kathy

Tags: hollywood's worst kept secret, who's gay, amazon.com, GYN appointment, rescue mission

What time of the year is it?

If you were to go outside today you would never think it was anywhere close to Christmas let alone being December.  According to the weather guy it's going to be in the low to mid 70's all week!  WOO HOO

Most people have traditions for this time of year.  I really can't remember any real traditions my family has had.  I do remember way back when my Granny (that's what we called our grandmother  -- and it really fit her) was still alive, she LOVED chocolate covered cherries.  We always had a box or two around the house for her.  After she died we still bought chocolate covered cherries into the house.  No one really liked them all that much but it was a part of what when "had" to buy every year.  It was probably a good 5 years or so before we stopped buying them.

But this year!  I know it was probably out last year but I just decovered a Hershey Kiss that is wonderful! Cherry Cordial Creme Kisses!  Now these I like!  They taste like chocolate covered cherries but without the cherry and not so sweet either.  I know my Granny would love these things.

While I was looking for the above link I found some fun things at the Hershey site that I never knew they had.  Check these out:

HERSHEY'S KISSES Brand Chocolates - Downloads - Screensavers

HERSHEY'S KISSES Brand Chocolates - What's New

Great stuff -- and best of all it's free stuff!

Mom gave me some Christmas money early and of course I had to spend part of it early.  I got some games for my computer.  I had been playing the free versions on AOL.  You can buy them from AOL but they cost like $19.95, I found the exact same thing at Wal-Mart for $9.99.  Not bad.  Plus buying them at Wal-Mart I get the CD for a back up in case my computer crashes, you don't get that with AOL.

If you are having "my" great weather what are you doing sitting there?  Get outside!  You know it will get cold sooner or later so get outside now while you can.

Kathy

 

 

Tags: chocolate covered cherries, granny, kisses, warm weather, christmas traditions

Bah Hum Bug

Once upon a time Christmas was really fun for me.  I loved decorating and shopping.

Some how, somewhere all that changed for me.  I guess it was about the time my depression struck in full gear years ago.  And it seems to go down hill every year for me.  Instead of thinking of Christmases past I think of future ones.  Ones where I am all alone.  I saw it happen to my Aunt and I see it slowly happening to me.

And now my family is going crazy.  I don't know if it is the time of year or if its stuff that was bound to happen sooner or later.  I expect it is the latter of the two.

As mom gets older (she's 75 years old) the more hateful she gets towards my dad.  And of course my dad acts like a 2 year old (he's 70 years old) and snaps right back at her.  Then I get a call from mom telling me how dad is acting.  Then I get a call from dad wanting to go somewhere  --  he's just gotta get out of the house.  I go with him.  He drives like an idiot and talks about mom like she is some evil thing.  So I get both parents bad mouthing each other.  If I stick up for the parent being talked about it makes things worse.

I am sick of dad talking about my mom.  It hurts.  Mom is having issues with her mind and memory since she was operated on when she fractured her hip.  You will not convince me that the anesthesia didn't do something to her brain.  I try to overlook some of the things she says.  I try to encourage dad to remember that she is taking meds for her "condition".  (I refuse to call it Alzheimer's  -- yeah some dementia sure)  But he seems to refuse to believe she is anything but acting like the devil.

I hate mom talking about dad.  But somehow it hurts more when he talks about her.  He even got so mad the other day he said he may have to put her in a nursing home because he just couldn't handle her mouth much more.  I wanted to scream at himand could have killed him.  Really.  Mom is physically in pretty good shape all things considered.  But she is getting grouchy and kinda of mean in her old age  -- I will admit to that.  She isn't the same person she was say 5 years ago. 

I know living with her is probably a lot harder than just me watching from the side lines.  But all the fighting is really getting to me.  I have tried to tell each of my parents that I don't want to hear about the other one.  But it is a lost cause. 

I don't know if it will get to the point that my dad says enough is enough or if it will just be an never ending battle until one of them passes away.

I don't know how to handle all this.  I love my parents, really I do.  But all of this (with my depression thrown in) is really getting to me.

Kathy

Tags: parents, fighting, dementia, depression

The on line crafts fair.

I mentioned this last week and forgot to give you the updated link when it came.

First let me say:  I don't know any of these people.  The writer of "Citizen of the Month" is a writer of some sort and seems legit but I don't know.  So if you order anything from anyone be cautious.  Ok?

Here's the link with all the links: Citizen of the Month » The First Annual Blogger Holiday Online Arts and Crafts Fair

Have fun and let me know if you order anything and your experience with that.

Kathy

 

 

Tags: online crafts fair

New Radio Station

My Scotish pal Stuart (Specimen Days) now has a radio station!  Great news for him!  You can find a link to the online radio station in either of his journals (Specimen Days) -- yeah the dude has two journals but they are about the same.  Or you can use this link: Online Easy Listening Radio Station - Live365 Internet Radio - Kafka's World Radio

"Kafka" is Stuart's other online name.

His station is up and running 24/7 now.  WOO HOO  You will love the music he plays.  So be sure to check him out.

Kathy

PS:  If you don't remember Stuart try out these links:

Dance Stuart Dance!

Crazy Scotsman

 

Tags: radio station, Stuart, Specimen Days, Kafka

Is it just a movie?

So there is this new movie coming out.  Looks kind of interesting --  the promos and all.  Then I hear something about it on the Glenn Beck show (on CNN? he's on one of the news networks I just can't remember which.) about atheists and I'm all like huh?

So I have finally looked it up on the internet.  I have some links for you if you want to read about it.   The first link I feel good about it being truthful.  Instead of picking a random second link I will give you the link to the search page and you can check into it more if you would like.

 Urban Legends Reference Pages: The Golden Compass

AOL Search results for "the golden compass"

I'm not going to "preach" on wheter this movie is trying to convert us all or if it's just a movie and you can or leave it.  I just don't know what I think about it.

I will say I never understood all the church hoopla over Harry Potter.  I have read the books and seen some of the movies and I honestly don't see anything wrong with them.  Of course this new movie is supposedly something else.

Kathy

 

 

 

Tags: movie, the golden compass, atheists

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Your laugh for today

You gotta watch this!!!

Click here: Mrs hughes skewed views | Crackle - Stream On

 

Veterans of Foreign Wars -- VFW

In case you are interested in sending some of the members of the VFW holiday wishes:

Veterans of Foreign Wars (VFW): 2007 Holiday Sign a Card Page

I got this link from: 

Veterans of Foreign Wars (VFW)

Which I get emails from time to time from.

 

Tags: VFW, holiday card for veterans

Christmas cards and other random stuff

I am only sending like 5 Christmas cards this year so instead of getting the boxed kind I decided to spend the extra $$$ and get individual cards.  What I wasn't planning on was the cost of the ones I really wanted.

Yes Russ I bought Hallmark.  And thanks to the cost of the ones I bought your (Russ) retirement should be safe.

I bought those new musical ones.  They are great.  I LOVE them!!!!!  I hate that they are about $5.00 a piece!  I would never spend more than $3.00 on a card, but these are great.  I even bought one that wasn't Christmas because it was so funny (the one with Gilda Radner on it Russ).

Hopefully the recipients of said cards will love them as much as I have.

Next unrelated subject:

While driving down the road the other day my dad and I spot a deer -- dead deer laying on the side of the road.  I would have NEVER thought there could be a deer in this part of town.  Where the heck did it come from?  It was beautiful (although dead) and a rather large deer.

Things like seeing dead animals on the side of the road bothers me.  If I don't stop thinking of it I will end up in tears.  Well dad goes on and on about this deer (which I did call the police to have someone come pick up -- the deer not my dad --) and I am starting to cry and I finally snap at him: I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT ANYMORE! 

Dad knows that I am a cry baby.  I have a HUGE heart for animals and will cry over them being hurt, abused, and yeah, lying dead on the side of the road.

Ok -- trying my first little poll here.  Hope it works.  I wish they gave you a choice of more than 2 answers.  Oh well...

 

 Take care.  I'm going to play some AOL games.  Have you ever bought one of the games on line?

Kathy

 

Tags: christmas cards, expensive cards, aol games, dead animals on side of road, dead deer

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Today is quiz day!

I started this first quiz that I found the link to over at: The 365 Days of Halloween  Whose blog I found through Russ' journal.

Ok sit back, it's going to be a weird quizzen (is that a word?) day:  (click on the pictures, I don't know why the links under the pictures popped up and I haven't clicked on them.  I guess it's just advertising for the sites)

 

122,779 People

Jacksonville Dating

26%

Los Angeles Dating

28% Geek

Las Vegas Dating

I SCORED A 38%

San Francisco Dating

$5550.00The Cadaver Calculator - Find out how much your body is worth.

Wichita Dating

60%SOCIAL DRINKER

Arlington Dating

 

 

And this is an AOL quiz:  Holidays: Holiday Food Trivia Quiz - AOL Living  Which I got like 4 answers right.  Bummer.

 

Kathy

 

 

Tags: quiz day, zombies, geeks, disney, cadaver worth, booze, death calendar, aol holiday food quiz